hard life
I've notice 1 thing and I have to constantly remind myself. With my depression and hardship of life, I'm actually keeping ppl away from me especially men. They tend to want an easy woman. An easy way of life. Not how a person is.
I know my life is hard and difficult and I know I'm one of the most unlucky person but I also do know that with every bad, there's ALWAYS a good that'll turn up. It's just that the hard is so painful I can't seem to stand it.
I came so close to committing suicide. It's the closes I've been. Then I realize that that's how ppl end up committing suicide - having no one around. You tend to want someone to be there for you especially being a woman, we tend to think the main role of men is to be strong for us and shit. Not thinking that they too have hardship and that we're all women. Men in the olden times maybe stronger than the men today and as many of us know men these days cook while women work even harder than men. The world has turned upside down so we can't assume anymore.
I've pushed many ppl away forever for being depressed and sharing my hardship, hoping that others would hear my cry. In doing so, many just run away and I've come back to finding my strong self again and being a man. I guess that's why I've ALWAYS been single and ALWAYS don't talk much about myself. People don't want to hear about you, they just want to sleep with you and want to be with you coz of your look and how easy you are to be with.
I just can't wait to be middle age when things would be more settled down (I'm hoping).
I know my life is hard and difficult and I know I'm one of the most unlucky person but I also do know that with every bad, there's ALWAYS a good that'll turn up. It's just that the hard is so painful I can't seem to stand it.
I came so close to committing suicide. It's the closes I've been. Then I realize that that's how ppl end up committing suicide - having no one around. You tend to want someone to be there for you especially being a woman, we tend to think the main role of men is to be strong for us and shit. Not thinking that they too have hardship and that we're all women. Men in the olden times maybe stronger than the men today and as many of us know men these days cook while women work even harder than men. The world has turned upside down so we can't assume anymore.
I've pushed many ppl away forever for being depressed and sharing my hardship, hoping that others would hear my cry. In doing so, many just run away and I've come back to finding my strong self again and being a man. I guess that's why I've ALWAYS been single and ALWAYS don't talk much about myself. People don't want to hear about you, they just want to sleep with you and want to be with you coz of your look and how easy you are to be with.
I just can't wait to be middle age when things would be more settled down (I'm hoping).
posted by mizzoflea at 9:48 AM
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really nice....
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