Love

I know it's hard to trust or let your heart fall in love. I've yet again made that happen but this time I've opened myself too much that it hurts too much when he's gone. I can't believe I've cried every night for 2 weeks in a row just from missing him badly and feeling abandoned and hurt.
Friends have said that I seem to always make them seem innocent like they have no fault. Everyone makes mistakes and sometimes we tend to hurt the ones we love without realizing it. And decisions are made by 2 parties even though they don't know each others decisions. That's how I look at it. Then again maybe I'm just hoping.
This last one, I really tried hard and I WAS myself entirely for a change. I know I don't talk about my past coz that's something I don't wanna look back to. Too much bad memory and hurt. I live in the future. But I guess that's what made him leave me.
I feel like I'm a easy prey in the life of men. I always wish that they'd be the one.
The surprises. The things he's said and did which was something I've always thought and wanted in a men but never said it. The same thought and understanding when we're together.
It's been a month since we last talked or seen each other. I still miss him alot and think about him constantly but I've stopped crying from keeping myself busy and I've kept myself from the world of men to prevent me from doing stupid things.